Sesik (R.I.P 27/11/11)

Yesterday one of our cat died. Its a she and we named her Sesik, she is a white coloured cat, with beautiful blue eyes.

i remembered one day when my daughter brought her home. she is so small and soo.. white. :)

i missed her, even though she sometimes irritates us with her squealing meows, but she is extraordinary.

i don't really like her when she first came to our house. i think back, how i treated her badly. how i just toss her around. but, she will keep on coming back. one thing that is unique and distinctive about her is that, she likes to suckle. she'd suckle on my daughters ears, mouth... =.='

i did kept some of her pictures suckling.. :D

hearing stories on how my daughter found sesik, is very sad. it is a good thing that we took her in. at least she had that pampered life before she ends. she was separated from her mom during birth. there were 4 of them. 2 were taken. leaving her and one of her sibling. no one wanted to take her in, she was left alone, when someone took her sibling. she was wandering about the 'kedai makan' being kicked and tossed around. i curse the people that threw this kittens. at least let them be with their mother for a little while, to breastfeed. just because they are animals, doesnt mean that they dont have feelings.

i had no remorse at that time of what i did to her.. (at that time)... but then it struck me... painfully.. she felt sick, i was terrified. we brought her to the vet. she had pneumonia. we did not check her for FIP. i just cant bear the news actually. we continued her medicine. she was okay. but, once her medicine finished, it struck her again. she had difficulty breathing again. this convince me. she had FIP. we were to late yesterday, she was in her last breath, she died during a procedure. her lungs is already fill with fluid. three cats of mine died this year only. this has been a sad..sad.. year.

I regret of what i have done to her. but i tried to give her the best during her stay.at least she had the best during her short life. i am glad we took her in. i am sorry of what i did to her...

i miss her, last night i dreamt of her..

RIP - Sesik

How I wish

I hate my life.. just for the record...

all in all, everything is ok for me.. it is just that i couldn't find things that would make me happy. looking at other people, how i often wish i had their happy life.. staring at facebook last night, looking at some of them women's status.. going off to vaca wif hubby.. there and there, and there.. and back again... going shopping wif BFF's.. having lunch at The Curve.. i wish my life is that simple. i wish i had a solid, rich life. but... i have been busting my butt... to get the life that i achieved now. too much sadness, to much broken hearts.. to much off everything. but a little and only a glitch of happiness..

i have been in and out of relationships. but it always will only last up to 2 years... MAX. then it is either i got bored, or the guy does. i kept on blaming myself. i kept saying, u have to do this.. in order for it to be like that.. i gave myself orders, in order to please people. HELL... such nuisance of me..

i had a gap of time when i was alone, single and happy.. i dont have to bother about other people, or afraid that i would hurt peoples feeling. i dont have to care. i had fun being single.. i like being single.. no attachments..  i cud just go around with other guys, without having the concern about someone getting mad or as the malay term... "TERKANTOI". for single people out there... treasure it... :P

now, being in a relationship back again, i get this awkward, stupid feeling. i hate this feeling. i dont want to love anyone anymore.. coz i dont even have the time to love myself. i dont want to go on an emotional roller coaster again. i hate that.. i hate the feeling of being left.. of being hurt.. i just hate it.. when this occurs, i feell my world collapsing, i feel that everyone hates me.. one high pitch tone from anyone or someone, i felt like killing myself.. but.. i still have my faith.

How i wish, that i don't have to be in that gloomy place again. but, alas, we are human.. i do stupid things.. and i end up being stupid myself. i want to leave and get out of this situation.. but i just can't. let them give the words. let them cut the rope.. how i wish... i could just be free and single again..

My Eidd

My dear baby, when he is 7 months <3

cute      ^.^

Sincerely me

I never knew.

I never knew why they hated me that much.
I never knew why,
I never knew how much my accomplishments are recognize by them,
I never knew how to let them come by,
I never knew how to impress them and let me know that i am alive,
I wish they could just see me more, then only see me when they see me.
I never have tried so hard in my life and gain a lot more,
I never expected my life would turn out this good, maybe it is just the reason why,
I thank them for not recognizing me, and let me humbly passes by,
Therefore i cherish only to my moment and time, and let them be how they might.

Sincerely me.

If I had my child to raise over again - Diane Loomans

If I had my child to raise all over again,
I'd build self-esteem first, and the house later.
I'd finger paint more, and point the finger less.
I would do less correcting and more connecting.
I'd take my eyes off my watch, and watch with my eyes.
I would care to know less and know to care more.
I'd take more hikes and fly more kites.
I'd stop playing serious, and seriously play.
I would run through more fields and gaze at more stars,
I'd do more hugging and less tugging.
I'd see the oak tree in the acorn more often,
I would be firm less often, and affirm much more.
I'd model less about the love of power,
And more about the power of love

Problems faced in group interaction ad ways to overcome these problems

What is group interaction?

Group interaction is where two or more interdependent individuals who influence one another through social interactions. The aim of it is to fulfill and to accomplish a goal or the objectives of a meeting. Whereby the individuals in that group will brainstorm in search for ideas, therefore it requires active participation amongst the group members. Being in a group means that each individual members has their own role to play. Each members will have to contributes and put forth ideas, express their own opinions or arguments,  negotiate, to interrupt politely when asking questions on what are being discussed and to answer whatever clarifications that are needed. Then only any other irrelevant ideas can be weeded out and the group will finally foster a consensus and come to a conclusion, in order for them to achieve the objectives of their meeting. Every group will have a leader. The leader are elected by a higher power or via discussion by the group itself. The elected leader will then manage the discussions, by introducing the subject that are being discussed, inviting other individuals within the groups to contribute their ideas, to seek clarifications on the ideas contributed by the group members and finally closing the discussions after having met the objectives. If the discussions are handled properly and been managed well, it will be an enjoyable event and will have a fruitful outcome. Having skills in group interactions are important nowadays, as we will have to work along many other individuals in order for us to achieve our own or the company's objectives required. Though, group work are sometimes, quite difficult to manage, but it can build up valuable skills in ourselves and contributes to having a successful issue - oriented program. It helps us to be a good negotiator, and to have the skills on how to put forth and to concede your arguments. building group interaction skills also helps us in responding to questions and ways of answering them politely and appropriately. 

Hell's gate

Wow! that is the first thing that came into my mind. Kan best kalau dapat pergi tempat-tempat ni. Amongst all of them, yang paling interest me the most is 'Hell's Door in Turkmenistan'. Pergh...!! sangat santekk seh!

It is located in Kara-Kum desert (nama sgt menakutkan) at Turkmenistan. apahal jadik mcm tu? adalah kerana pada tawun..(hehehe) 1971, sekumpulan pencari minyak dari Soviet dikatakan drill through the chamber, whereby it filled with natural gas. the cavern then collapsed, so it left a sinkhole as deep as 25 metres. It is said until now the gas still rises. So, some says the ignites the gas to avoid gas poisoning. (correct me if I'm wrong). And it has been burning since. But, ada jugak yang cakap, it is all via mother nature... (beats me)...

Still, saya sangat teringin nak tingok... Sangat cantik bukan? Check this out!

More nice pictures here! :D

Credits to aquiziam

Simon's Cat in 'Double Trouble'

This is soo cute.. their behavior are actually exactly like our cats at home.

I love it...!!! <3

Credit to @simonscat